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11:05 pm
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wow
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fresh start from the purest philosophical soft heart:
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12:11 pm
[Link] | when i feel your heatbeat
it sets mine on repeat
a fixed delay, a love to display
i encourage you so much
i love your irreplaceable touch
it fills me up so much
you are a heart of mine that aches so badly
my love to you is more than you can see
from human eyesight ; a one that was bright
towards our future of irreplaceable love
please do not push and shove, but love me do
id appreciate all of the love from you, you know?
can you tell me so i wont worry again
because i dont know a good time like this has been
so happy filled with lovely thought
you have brought nothing but encouragement that
was meant to be for us to see a bright future
of bright lights so bright that are ready to fight;
ready to fight giving peace a chance because we are lovers
we are lovers, not fighters, we dont need the lighters to
start a fire, our hearts fill up the flame, and no one is to blame
i really care about you, in ending
there really is no beginning , but depending
on what is about to be pending, you will
find out how much i care about you on this day
a lot is all i have to say, from what brought back yesterday
its called love and peace, something you need to pick up all the pieces
to this puzzle that makes the average mind struggle, but do not forget,
do not struggle, all it is is just you and me, something everyone would love to see
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12:55 am
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hey you.
wow. its been a fucking while.
as if i didnt feel like shit already.
anyways, im picking poetry back up fer sher.
here goes something from the bottom of my soul:
just so you know, your in my thoughts
lifes so careless with you around
its drums are soft and quiet
our true love is surreal to this ground
[thats it for now ill cruise back for more poetry improv status some time soon]
COMMENTARY WOULD BE APPRECIATED.
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03:41 pm
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a peronal post, on this lj, is rare
i dont know what to think anymore
i cant write, or express how i feel
i hate summer i cant operate under this heat
everythings a mess and i just want school to start
summers supposed to be full of my friends being able to hang out more
and its the complete oppostie, and i hate that a lot.
todays one of those days i dont ever want to remember.
i didnt learn a damn thing today.
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11:23 am
[Link] | ive gone into existance, after my past
to me, i have fought through the dead
(just to make sure this relationship will last)
in appearance i feel you coming near
my soul, it seeks yours like the animals
in the forests on all fours
can you feel my heart beat repeat?
this isnt a love disaster, its me and you
(just me and you)
im after you, in a deadly race
that just might last forever
we will make it to the end this time
(in harmony just like our past)
searching, like the hunter and gatherer
im hopping in desperation leaping
towards something new, once thought old
have i found you finally?
not this time, you so quick so fast
(but you cant hide forever)
im so jealous because i am the pro
and you are just another mere amateur
(i thought i had you right underneath me)
right underneath me, under the glass
hiding in the shadows of desperation
running away from truth, like always
(will this always be the same?)
but i give up, in the physical state
although my mind is nowhere near tired
(ill do whatever it takes to find you)
entrailing myself again, i am now lost
this temption has caused my love a loss
it has now taken over my meaning of life
but i wont let her take over my mind
never, ill do whatever it takes
(as long as we go back to our past)
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11:03 am
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expired flowers
the chemcals have spilled
apprently has your heart
as well as love, its you
these insecurities are your fault, not mine
fallen, have i for you
i lasted, couldnt she see
was it me, whose she speaking to?
i want that place back
we used to call home
will i give it another day
kissed my heart did she (pass away?)
i understand now
this makes perfect sense
the ending to the story's immense!
she did it again this time
(woke me up at midnight)
oh god, where did i go wrong?
so said to see you like(the rest of) us
die did she
you guessed it right
apparently you are wrong
confused like the rest of us
sad to say i cant touch her
she must be dead we all think
it's too late to kiss those insecurities goodbye
recall my face, why cant she
died away from those rotten flowers,
have i on this mourning curiosity died
expired like make up in the rain, im just another lost soul
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07:48 pm
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schizophrenic girls
theyve got me going
its so hard to stop
my hearts throbbing
so bad from this pain
im trying to get away
and all fell is you
persuading me to stay
these pains are facading
running downhill i come
away from the both of you
jealousy is merely scarred
these faces are undecided
now my face is unruly marred
but too late, youre widowed away
and im dead in spirit at the least
so stay away before i untame the beast
its soothing now as i am calm and relaxed
the pain killers are kicking into my past
for my soul has departed my mind, collapsed
saving death before damage for my heart to last
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11:33 am
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i love you
your love was so crucial
that i dont know what id do without it
save me <3333333333
kiss the unconcerned
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04:37 pm
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cheating isnt fair
love isnt a color,
but it is all colors
you can carve a scar into my heart
that way we both leave a symbolic meaning
a truth dared so bold
will forever remind us
that true love like this
will never ever ger old
love isnt blind,
but it can see
it can repair
the unhealthy
we can run with each other to the beach
as far as you want, because my arms will never
be too far away from your heart to reach
love isnt fair,
nor is it ever free
we can kiss like nobodies looking
that way we can love once again
love used to kill,
but now it cant anymore
all because.......
you took me back
i love you.
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02:22 pm
[Link] | i know i posted this before, but i really like this one.
sometimes the darkest light is the brightest pink
the voice lingered all night on the phone
while the person being called dialed no tone
it didnt pick up for several reasons
the main disease brought four different feelings
and this began a stanger of crude discrete moods
now began a downfall of awkward attitudes
now all circles began to form rays of light
all fullfilled automated into the lazy twilight
and thus began four different seasons, not moods
winter that fell for spring to fall back on summer interludes
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10:43 am
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i love you
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11:59 am
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yesss.you guessed it...kind of like sex
this goes for the love of my life <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333
at the temperature
of attraction and fate,
i now make my mark
each of its opposties
on the corner of
virginity and expectancy
i hand over the faith of love
its waterfall, overpowering
the grasp clinging onto just me
sitting there, expanding
the look is mere in
image of taste with purity
and all else is like
lipstick, evenly smeared
each of its lovelines
sexed up towards a new light
then the connection is there
each of the powerlines, connected
there goes the fare of the price
and it was nowhere, just sacrificed
yes, and thats where it clearly
stands out for you and I as of today
in each of the looks towards to
the new obscure anti-lustrous image
too, i taste the need for cosmic
love and my love for you is caressed
the desire of what ive always craved
is it kind of like sex, of course, yes
the inner begginnings of love arent over
the spit ends are indifferent, its why.....
its kind of like sex, but more, unique
this is love, no more change in my heart
taking away the viriginity out of this,
its sensed that the endings are no good
for this must go on forever in my heart
and thank you for this reflectionist love
this mirror will never dissapear <3
Current Mood:  ,i am
Current Music: bjork/the stills
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10:41 am
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sobriety fever
sobriety fever...enjoy
they have me locked up inside
lungs full of compassion for death
awaiting to breath in toxic
toxic fumes of shock for love
im awaiting inside, waiting
waiting to tell you something
im apart from the norm
and all is well until this
unexpectancy has occured again
when will this feeling end
trashed apart from distance, falling
freefalling from the words that kept me
these words kept me sane
they told the secret to love
but now im growing insane
no longer love from the above
this waste has drifted me from you
and i still can't even realize it
all i want is what made my mind process
i still cant feel the pain to confess
the words are splintered, torn apart inside
as all these things have swept my tide
im gazing for thoughts and ideas
and im trapped inside of this wall
and too this room of forbidden taste
symbolizes replicas of me at freefall
and im thinking, thinking once again
in the past, when two operated as one
i have chose the alocohol over you
and its not entirely why my face is red
i am furious and have ran out of it
i need more or else blood will be shed
im facading away and my mind is eroding
but im trying to keep my head from exploding
at the end of the day, for the rest of life
i have realized that the alcohol was always there
even when i chose to walk out on my wife
but somethings missing, is my heart of dispare?
but this alcohol, has it lead me nowhere
or need i get more for both lungs to share?
( authors note )
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12:57 pm
[Link] | ive been ok. just needed a break from lj. a week did me good
still going to do sobriety fever... soon, i need to feel the right mood for it.
as well, look out for an upcoming release of, kind of like sex..
sounds weird, but hey, listen to this:
dont try new things
just to get away from the old
try more than ordinary
dont do what youre told
as a result, this brings
a new soul for the dead cemetary..
this is a demo..thought id share it... it might not go any further than this, or be edited. i think its great...
the message is this. do what you want to do, those things that you dont think will work out. as long as youre trying what you desire then youre fine. you really are. look at me. i wanted to be a singer....never was...why? because i tried so hard to be one by making lyrics. i didnt necessarily want to be a poet, but i ended up doing what i wanted to inside. i follwed my spirit and passion. just follow what nautrally happens and give a little more emphasis on it, the outcome may be different, but im positive youll love the outcome.
i love this outcome, ha a singer? forget that... i have so many comments when i enter communities. if i wanted to, i could probably make a lot more comments and be heard by many, but i dont want this now. i need to perfect this gift that literally came out of nowhere.it came to me a year ago, and im still messing around with it. soon things will be more complex and brought together.
so do it!
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03:40 pm
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a heartless hearth
when the door opens,
it shuts thereafter
but as his lung thins
its the publics laughter
he walks around in life, confused
everywhere he goes hatred finds him
constantly being fled by the refused,
he discovers that he isnt like them
this man is really a boy
he is outcasted into a man
he just plays dolls as decoy
like a puppet masters plan
as hard as it seems, he walks and works
every day he is looked down upon and hurt
his enviroment acting like narrow-minded jerks
he might as well get over with the worst
hes trying to find something
a new place to finally stay
for a lifes simple teaching
hes on his knees to this day
this man tries to pray to God and ask why
why this earth has so much blissed hatred
he goes on forth wondering if this is a lie
no one to this day knows what he now did
he vanished off the earth
and never ever again came back
heart never connected hearth
too many qualties did he lack
this boy is me....i want to leave the earth... ive never been so depressed before. thank you all for reading my bare soul.
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03:26 pm
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sobriety fever
rain check..... <3
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11:51 am
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this is all for today
live, to love
as an expression
or for a desire
sin, to shove
forever to prove
youve got nothing
at all to lose
choose, to inquire
an emotional game
its all about life
express, to inspire
expirement and guess
go for the unset list
risk free devotion
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04:06 pm
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rumors
call them by the name of non-purity
give it the opposite call of my virginity
take away the good sake of lost causes
just thought id let you all know, especially you, that this story is somewhat true, but over exaggerate because of mild feeling. mixes with me and a make believe person, its a myth poem, i love mixing myself with other things <3
hope you enjoyed it
rumors
kill what was barely left inside
forget about my world full of pride
its said to see that you lied
in my heart that feels no longer
it was one thing that it was suspisciously spread
spread like cancer amongst the plague of the dead
but it was another thing that loved ones breathed it
you breathed dirt into my lungs and kicked
of all the ripe apples of mine the rotten you picked
of all the pain it was mine you licked
and it still spreads like a vine today
im all alone in the walls full of white
and im telling you this time no more eyesight
because breath this time is death of light
i dont want to trust out anymore
i dont want this heart to be tore
im going to bed without you in mind
and when i thought truth again, I flaked
end.......
side note:
im all alone in the walls full of white
and im telling you this time no more eyesight
because breath this time is death of light
walls of white-isolation room,
breath this time is death of light- means the person insists he/she wont ever go into broad daylight again, doesnt trust a soul, feels left out of happiness.
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05:02 pm
[Link] | her mood was visablly stable on the verge of being erratic
the noise of sound was unusually stable amongst the x-rays of static
i love poetry
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04:52 pm
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sometimes the darkest light is the brightest pink
the voice lingered all night on the phone
while the person being called dialed no tone
it didnt pick up for several reasons
the main disease brought four different feelings
and this began a stanger of crude discrete moods
now began a downfall of awkward attitudes
now all circles began to form rays of light
all fullfilled automated into the lazy twilight
and thus began four different seasons, not moods
winter that fell for spring to fall back on summer interludes
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